Tuesday, September 7, 2010


5 minutes ago, i was in bed tossing and turning.
and then i thought to write it out 
A hundred questions are flying through my thoughts.
{at this exact moment}
and all i can ask is ?why?

Why do bad things happen to good people?
as in hard trials, painful situations, tragic news, & tough obstacles.

I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, and that a higher power controls what happens and someday (yes someday) we’ll see better when the smoke clears.
But why?
Why does a young woman have to lose her father when she is my age?
Why does a young lady have to live her entire life with a disability?
And why does cancer have to affect a good friend?
Is what i'm feeling normal? Isn’t it ok to question?
I have put in a lot of thought into this post tonight, and after some more questioning [and tears... we all know i am a major cry baby these days] i was struck with this thought:

How can we possibly become a strong person, if we have an easy life? The tougher the situation is, the tougher we have a chance to become if we choose to fight back.

The {three} women in the situations above have courage
----> much more courage than i hold. They are amazing and all are determined to march forward.

I try to remind myself that with every adversity in life, there is always a seed of an equal or greater benefit. We just have to look for it. find it. and act on it. 
Confession: i still struggle looking for the "answer" in rough waters. but who doesn't 
It's easier said than done. We know good can come from situations, BUT what hurts STILL hurts.
But i look to these words with hope for the future. Hope is uplifting, strengthening, promising, and faith restoring. And you know what... we need to have hope. Hope is knowing that i will go on and never give up. It gives me a reason to get up in the morning.
these are true:
-We learn to have courage --> when we face danger.
-We learn tenderness --> when we taste pain.
-We treasure our health --> when illness strikes.
So tonight as i say my bed time prayers, i am not necessarily praying for an easy life without problems, i am praying to become a stronger person. I am praying to keep hope alive in others' hearts.
To all of you bloggers reading this post, you should know that i love the lyrics to this song:
"Lean on me, when you’re not strong, i’ll be your friend, i’ll help you carry on.."
& it's the truth. through the good & the bad, i am there, we all are.

1 comment:

  1. Of course it is okay to ask those questions! I ask them all of the time!!! Life is hard and many times it doesn't seem fair. But I, like you, believe that God is just and has purpose in all things. I know that the trials I have and am enduring are only for my benefit. Some days it is harder to see that than others, but deep in my soul I know it is true. I also know that I will get to see my dad again and live with him forever...which is such a comfort! I am so thankful for the knowledge that I have and for a Faith that brings me complete peace when I need it the most. Heavenly Father will give you peace too :) Love you Chels!