why

5 minutes ago, i was in bed tossing and turning.
and then i thought to write it out 
A hundred questions are flying through my thoughts.
{at this exact moment}
and all i can ask is ?why?

Why do bad things happen to good people?
..::[Bad]::..
as in hard trials, painful situations, tragic news, & tough obstacles.

I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, and that a higher power controls what happens and someday (yes someday) we’ll see better when the smoke clears.
But why?
Why does a young woman have to lose her father when she is my age?
Why does a young lady have to live her entire life with a disability?
And why does cancer have to affect a good friend?
W-H-Y
Is what i'm feeling normal? Isn’t it ok to question?
I have put in a lot of thought into this post tonight, and after some more questioning [and tears... we all know i am a major cry baby these days] i was struck with this thought:

How can we possibly become a strong person, if we have an easy life? The tougher the situation is, the tougher we have a chance to become if we choose to fight back.


The {three} women in the situations above have courage
----> much more courage than i hold. They are amazing and all are determined to march forward.

I try to remind myself that with every adversity in life, there is always a seed of an equal or greater benefit. We just have to look for it. find it. and act on it. 
Confession: i still struggle looking for the "answer" in rough waters. but who doesn't 
It's easier said than done. We know good can come from situations, BUT what hurts STILL hurts.
But i look to these words with hope for the future. Hope is uplifting, strengthening, promising, and faith restoring. And you know what... we need to have hope. Hope is knowing that i will go on and never give up. It gives me a reason to get up in the morning.
these are true:
-We learn to have courage --> when we face danger.
-We learn tenderness --> when we taste pain.
-We treasure our health --> when illness strikes.
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So tonight as i say my bed time prayers, i am not necessarily praying for an easy life without problems, i am praying to become a stronger person. I am praying to keep hope alive in others' hearts.
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To all of you bloggers reading this post, you should know that i love the lyrics to this song:
"Lean on me, when you’re not strong, i’ll be your friend, i’ll help you carry on.."
& it's the truth. through the good & the bad, i am there, we all are.